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The Road to V5
Published: 2025-02-16
Aaaaaaaa. I started 2024 just about being able to climb V3 graded routes at a few gyms around London but I wanted to do better and get to climbing V4s consistently. Actually, let me correct myself there. I started 2024 with a sprained ankle and a lot of sitting around watching my friends climb, looking like a sad little puppy. Just needed a cone to complete the look. After six weeks or so I was back on the wall and climbing, and I was thrilled to find that I could still remember techniques a
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A leap of faith.
Published: 2025-02-02
The hardest thing about transition is trusting yourself that you’re making the best decisions possible. None of us really know for sure what the future holds and what will happen next. We’re always taking a leap of faith. Yeah, uh, this is a post about my upcoming Facial Feminisation Surgery… In about a week’s time I’ll be going under the knife with FacialTeam in Spain. They’ll be burring down and refining my forehead down, popping out some hair follicles and using it to fill in my hair line,
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The simple joy of climbing
Published: 2024-04-07
I first went bouldering at a north London climbing centre in summer 2022, in order to try and impress someone I was dating at the time. We joined a friendly group of people who visited weekly and climbed together, and I initially suffered through it because they were very lovely and it was nice to be in a community. I was very scared of going up walls though and I was kinda weak and had little noodle arms though, but it didn’t stop me. I had to take a break for three months as I had bottom sur
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Whoops! Let’s try this again.
Published: 2024-03-28
Having finally seen a psychiatrist this week to look into my serious mental health symptoms, I’ve finally been given a diagnosis and treatment plan—I have Complex PTSD, which is honestly what I began to realise I had already. But it’s definitely a big jump from thinking you have something, to a trained professional telling you that, yes, your brain is really that fucked up. In Safe Mode, I explained how this affects how I interact with the world every day. Emotions feel too intense to the point
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safe mode
Published: 2024-02-14
Safe mode is a feature in Windows where your computer boots up in a basic state, with most features and abilities disabled. It’s intended as a way to safely rule out bad settings and rogue hardware drivers that can be causing issues, and give you a more stable place to start fixing things. As a result, what you’re able to do when you’re in safe mode is rather limited. My brain has been in safe mode for the last year. Every little thing, every perceived “threat”, any time where there is a lot o
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