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The existential fear of rejection
Published: 2023-08-21
I signed up for my second round of therapy with the goal of managing and breaking out of a depressive spiral. In the first appointment, my therapist predicted that my depression is powered by anxiety alone, and by tackling that, it would lead to much better management of my depression. The next session she made a conjecture that my anxiety was built on the fear of rejection and abandonment. So er, turns out she was right. On both counts. Working through feelings and my behavioural patterns and
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Surviving
Published: 2023-07-04
Content warning for strong depression themes, mentions of suicide It wasn’t until the last couple of weeks, that I was fully able to comprehend that just getting through life makes you a survivor. I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety for years and years, and it came to a head earlier in 2023. I’ve missed so much time with my friends, at work, and with my hobbies over the last couple of months especially. Last week, I began the third attempt at finding a medicine that works to allev
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on my mind
Published: 2023-06-12
This is a follow up to the post I wrote a few weeks ago (Committing To A Better Me). Content warnings for depression themes and mentions of suicide. About five weeks ago, I finally reached out to my doctor about my symptoms of depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation. They gave me a referral to a therapist, nearly two months off work, and a prescription for an anti depressant, sertraline. The next couple of weeks were extremely tough as I was dealing with both my own breakdown and adjusting t
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Committing To A Better Me
Published: 2023-05-09
I don’t need to tell any of you about the many stressors and anxieties surrounding being a trans person in the year 2023. I feel like it’s a topic that’s been done to death and only serves to make people needlessly worried and scared and serves no real purpose. No, what I’m focussing on today is how that there’s so many things that have been affecting my brain and my ability to function normally in my day to day, and finally, I’ve hit a point where I’m getting the help I need and working on a pl
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Pizza Restaurants Are Too Pretentious For Their Own Good
Published: 2023-04-28
Pizza should be an unfussy vessel for cheese and carbs to enter your mouth.
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