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Four Weeks
Published: 2022-09-10
If all goes according to plan, in four and a half weeks’ time I’ll have a vagina. Fuck. A year ago this felt unattainable, a pipe dream, a vague concept, and now it’s really finally happening. Assuming everything runs to schedule, I’ll be healed and back on my feet by Christmas. It’s very surreal, knowing that my life is about to be, consensually, really quite difficult and scary and risky for a little while, but also knowing that the end state is going to bring me a lot of joy and peace. As
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It Started With A Selfie Filter
Published: 2022-07-25
Two years ago, I took this little selfie, and ran it through a filter that promised to “make you look like the other (sic) gender”. This photo above was the result. The moment that I saw this, I broke down sobbing. I had, only in the previous couple of days, found the Dysphoria Bible [https://genderdysphoria.fyi] via a tweet and had a multi-day depressive episode because I found it so painfully relatable. You see, two years ago, I was cooped up in my family home during the first Covid lockdown
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Maisie × Estrogen
Published: 2022-05-03
Preface This is intended as a living (i.e., constantly updated) guide documenting all the changes, effects and feelings I’ve experience while undergoing hormone replacement therapy in the first few years of my medical transition. The guide is meant to present how I feel throughout as-is, and will try and reflect on other things that may have helped cause or enhance these effects. I think in transfem circles, there’s often a big emphasis on how important estrogen is, its effects, and the timing
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Trans Visibility, And One Year Out
Published: 2022-03-31
Reflecting on a busy and spectacular year full of changes, as well as discussing what it means to be visible.
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How I Worked Out I Was Trans
Published: 2022-02-24
Warning: this post talks about some of my dysphoria, however I don’t go into a lot of detail. A quick timeline as an overview: * 2015 - 2018: got meeting trans people at university, realised being trans is a thing * 2019: seeing trans people share their transitions on social media, realising that, hey actually, this is something attainable and something I’d want! * March 2020: start of lockdown, move home. shave off beard and really love how it looks. start having a proper gender c
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